Day 111

there is so much i don't want to ever forget.

the week before zavier left us, i recorded him laughing on my cell phone. i have since replaced the cell phone so I could keep it in a safe place without worrying that it would break or get lost. i've only been able to hear it once or twice but at least i know it is there when i'm ready. his laugh was set as my ring tone the day zavier left us. i'm not sure if zavier left us or if he was taken from us. i guess, the end result is the same.

i went shopping a couple days ago and saw a pair of pants I just had to buy him. i know it is crazy.  i know he will never wear them. but they were exactly the kind of thing he would've worn if he were here. a tiny pair of pants with the word "ROCKER" across the backside. and i miss shopping for him. i miss so many, many things.