Sunday, May 9, 2010

Day 121

What a day. Yesterday marked 4 months that Zavier has been gone. I went to the cemetary this morning. I came home and watched a dvd of Zavier's pictures. My first Mother's Day as a mother of two, even though I never had a Mother's Day with my son. Zavier's absence today was overwhelming. As we sat to eat dinner, I felt so strongly that he is missing. He is here, yet he is still gone. I wanted more than ever to hold him, to have saved him. Today I am hurting.

And still I think,

How can I be angry at a God who has given me such an amazing Mother?

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